I was always going to use my mother's name -
Beatrice - for a daughter, and this made it impossible for me to use
Laura, either as a fn or a mn. Just too Italian 101. But otherwise I think
Laura would have been my first choice. I would never have considered
Lauren in any spelling, or
Lorraine, because they are so close to
Laura but not the real thing: which to me is beautiful, elegant and cheerful. Most people go through stages of not liking their own name; I hope you warm up to your one eventually.