Nobody fantasizes about a real rape?
Really?
There are people who fantasize about being killed and eaten. There are people who fantasize about becoming amputees or going blind.
Some even act on it.
Yes, some women, and men too, do fantasize about being raped in a non-BDSM way.
And was it really necessary to tell about your sexual behavior on this board?
"It's one thing to be open-minded and quite another to be so open-minded your brains fall out."--Dear Abby
"Let other people push you around, and you deserve whatever bad things happen after that."--Lauren Bacall